Sometimes, just like today.. I am asking myself if this is all worth it?
I mean, coming here in America only meant one thing: for our family to be together.
Now, it's been 5 years. Five years that we haven't hugged our parents, brothers and sisters-in-law, relatives and friends. We've missed all important occasions, events and celebrations. We've taken away the opportunity for our kids to get to know their cousins, relatives and grand parents.
We honestly miss everything and everyone in our country!
It wasn't and still isn't easy to go home just because finances are tight. I continue to be the sole bread-winner working in a state where it doesn't really pay as much. Just, hopefully, the opportunity to be given permanent residence.
Permanent residence and then freedom!
Freedom to leave the country so we can have a vacation in the Philippines without the hassle of non-immigration papers.
Confidence and security that we will be able to come back and have a job waiting for me.
Otherwise, everything remains temporary.
Is it all worth it?
I believe and know it is.
Lord, we honor, praise and thank You for all placing the desire in our hearts. As we wait for the fulfillment of Your promise, grant us the serenity, faith and trusting heart. All things will work for good because You love us Lord. We will no longer question You, grow weary and be in despair, O Lord. In Your hands, we place our future. Thy will be done.